#462 - Today I'm sad

Cried in school. Feeling depressed,helpless,hopeless. Right deep down inside my heart,I know that I cannot achieve what I aimed,but out of my expectation,I did even worse than what I thought. Was trying my best to hide my feelings in school & yet I comforted my friends,not myself. I don't know,I am confused. Am I being too positive or too negative? At first,I don't know what expressions my face should have,then,I was lost. Before that,I expect myself to do better in that particular subject as I had confidence. But now,I don't think there's any left. 

I need some happy pills.